Challenges. I've had more than I care to mention. In the last 24 hours I've had to say good bye to a beloved pet and somehow ended up with a corneal abrasion, which landed me in a very busy ER. Thanks to my sweet friend, Stef, I wasn't forgotten. (I have been left in an ER room before but was so out of it, I didn't care!) We made it home at 1:30 am.
We've packed and we are now on the road. It took a lot more to get organized that what we realized. We'll only be gone 'til Friday. I'm ready to be gone for a month. I hurt, inside and out.
Why would I write about such challenges, because this is life. We all have challenges in various forms. Sometimes they shock us, break our hearts and leave us reeling in confusion and doubt. They also let us see the depth of love and support around us at all times. A big part of me wanted to cancel this trip and feel sorry for myself. A bigger part of me knows there is a choice here, I could drown in sadness and be a victim or I can open wide, feel it all, cry a little, and move on. And sitting next to me is a man that only looks forward! Obviously since I know there's a choice I'll choose the later option.
I don't feel like there is a black cloud over me. I don't necessarily believe in bad luck, it just is what it is. I believe things happen and we try to put a spin on events to make them make sense to us. I can see trends and tendencies and in the end we all have to just play the cards we're dealt, even if they really suck sometimes. I believe my outer reality matches my inner thoughts, beliefs and programs. To change something on the outside, I have to go within. That's what I'll be doing this week, taking an inner and outer retreat. Its time.
One thing I've discovered is how this blog keeps things real. The last thing I wanted to report was more drama and yet, perhaps this can be a testament to someone else who's having a bad day, tough month, or challenging year. If this is you, or someone you know, hang in there. Ride those waves, become a "life surfer". You'll take some crashes but you'll also glide at times, and those are the times we stop and savor. Those memories and experiences give us the strength to drag ourselves back up on the surf board.
I'll be reporting from the road. I'd love for you to come along on this little adventure and see the view from my right eye (my left one is sorely out of commission for now!)
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